ODE TO MY BROTHER AND MY LIFE

When we’re young I don't think we see the world for what it truly is. Protected by the walls that surround us. The walls now covered by crayon and marker from when we were children. And I think somewhere between then and now I forgot to open my eyes because suddenly I've been set down, never to be picked up again. And unable to see the color that the world had when I was younger. 

I remember a wooden house with rough walls that would scrape my hands as I ran them along it. And a small house painted white where I would play tag. The apartment where I learned to ride a bike. the house we shared with my grandma, the one I first met my dad in. I remember the neighbors kids id use to have snowball fights with. And where I had my first sleepover. But somewhere between then and now I don't remember when I stopped seeing the world the same. Maybe it got lost in those heavy brown boxes that I don't bother to unpack anymore. Or maybe it got lost like most of the other memories that felt like they would stay forever. Getting used to the constant change. Never giving me the chance to look forward to the future always stuck wishing for the past. 

It's been a year since my brother died. family is supposed to be the one thing that stays consistent. Because Friends leave, pets die, and places change. But never could I imagine that one day I might wake up and not be a big brother anymore. Not be able to teach him how to play soccer or do math. Not having that constant nagging like you are the most important thing in their life. Because When someone has been with you almost your entire life they become part of your routine. You plan your future around them. They give you every reason to pursue your goals, because you want to give them everything you never had. Zeke is my motivation to push myself in every situation, not only for him but for my parents and me. 

-Kameron Mathews

ZEKE’S STORY

Ezekiel William Mathews was born on February 6th of 2017. I was nine and a half. He came in the night, directly after a snow storm. Zeke was always to good for this world. He was never afraid to be who he was, or show anyone his love for the lord. Zeke always put his all into everything he did, from soccer to playing with his friends. he always wanted to learn and always wanted to be apart of whatever you were doing. Zeke always had a dream to be a worrier ever since he got his first bow and arrow. and to grow as big and strong as dad and brother.

Zeke was Six when he was diagnosed with bacterial meningitis on November 23 of 2023. He was flown out of Wenatchee valley hospital to Seattle Children's hospital where he stayed unresponsive for a week until we got the news that his brain had swelled to a point where it had caused permanent brain damage. Making the body unable to breathe on its own. So the doctors gave us the decision and Zeke became an organ donor saving three other people's lives becoming a worrier for those people and people who’s lives he has effected. He officially passed away on December 1st of 2023. And that night God covered the ground with snow just as he did when Zeke came into this world letting us know that Zeke is back with God fighting in his army like he always wished for.